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Friday, July 2, 2010

it's quite hurtful at times to read your replies.
i dont know if im the one who's thinking too much or are they really more unfriendly than usual.
maybe you're really busy? or maybe you're just trying to draw the line clearer for me? or maybe that's how you usually treat friends?
hm. but it doesnt really matter does it. (:
i can't really do anything about it.
i guess i'm better at accepting the truths nowadays.
i still breakdown sometimes, i cant deny.
but after all that has happened (not that a lot has happened. but yah),
i guess im just happy that we're still in contact.
i think the biggest lesson i've learnt is that life IS unpredictable. haha!
and yah, i should cherish every moment. yah. i know im still not exactly cherishing every moment. =x
BUT im trying to change! :D:D at least im trying A LITTLE by LITTLE.

and thank you mummy and daddy for caring about my health.
i cant help (i can help lah. but omg, my temper as usual is quite bad =x soo... it's a little difficult to help. HAHAHA.) feeling annoyed sometimes when u keep asking me about it. cos i'll be reminded about it. and there are times i really hate it when u ask me why isnt it getting better after seeing the doctor so many times. i really dont know u know. and it's kind of my only hope? it doesnt help me feel better to be reminded of negative things! sometimes i really feel that maybe im really not getting better. =/ but after being negative and annoyed by all the things the both of you say. i realise u do that cos you care. duh. im sorry if i've been scolding the both of you in my mind at times when im annoyed. ):

okay, i feel a lot better after blogging all the things ive been bottling up! LOL. yay! time to start doing my other christmas song. HAHAHAHA.

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