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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
dreamt that you text me last night. (:
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Monday, August 30, 2010
it's not that i like hiding things from you. but if i dont feel like i can trust you, i wont be able to open up to you. the problem doesn't lie with you. i just need time to adapt to you, feel comfortable around you, know that you will accept me for the way i am, not criticise my way of thought. i dont think it's something that can be changed. im definitely much more open nowadays. i know the importance of communicating in any relationship, but if that's how i am. there'll still be times i act that way. or else i wont be me wouldnt i.
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im just blogging cos i need to talk to someone. LOL.
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you said you're feeling uncomfortable around her sometimes cos you think she likes you and she's trying to get closer to you. you said it like you were trying to bring across the fact that you care about feelings. worried that i would mind girls being attracted to you. im matter-of-factly not afraid of that. but it just so happened that im feeling a bit insecure at the moment. i was somehow reminded of what happened, which often makes me feel like crying. but nowadays im not crying because im sad that it's all over alr. it's because im reminded of how it felt. how lost i felt. =/ and it doesnt help seeing that youre that one who talks to girl first at times. does that even make sense. you supposedly feeling uncomfortable about it yet you're the one who bothers talking to her first. it doesnt make that much sense now. sigh. i dont want to talk about it. im afraid i might bring the wrong message across. i know im just feeling this way now because im in a bad mood. i dont think i want to talk about it to my friends because im afraid it might make the girl sound slutty and all. i believe she didnt 'get closer' to you. maybe she's just sociable in nature. i dont hate her. i dont dislike her. but i cant help feeling that way when im in a bad mood and doubting the kind of relationship the both of you share. AHHHHH. wth is wrong with me. okay. back to summarising my work. -.- thank god matt costa's mr pitiful is playing right now. must be the songs ive been listening to. ALL OF THEM WERE SO SLOW AND KINDA EMO-ISH. -.-
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